“Time! (Time) Time, Time; Time: Time. Time… Time? Time” -TheHaysWay
I just said goodbye to my best friend in the world for the next two and a half months. When I say it, it doesn’t seem that long. It FEELS like forever. My best friend isn’t the only one. Tomorrow will be my last full day in the house I’ve grown up in, for two and a half months. The day after that, I’m going to be saying goodbye to my sister for the next two and a half months. Next week, my parents are dropping me off at college, and I will be saying goodbye to them for two and a half months. There is never enough time to say what I want to say. If I had more time, I could’ve told my ex that everyday I pretend that I am the happiest person alive, and the only time I felt like I wasn’t pretending was the six-month span I was lucky enough to spend with her. If I had more time, I could’ve told my best friend that he is the reason that I always pretend to be the happiest person alive, and that mindset has actually made me a MUCH happier person. If I had more time, I could’ve told my sister that she is the best sister in the world, and that I wouldn’t trade away a second that I was lucky enough to spend playing Minecraft with her (she’s a HUGE Minecraft fan). If I had more time, I could’ve told my parents thank you; I know that I haven’t always had the same vision for myself that they have, but their vision is what has brought me to the great heights that I continue to reach for; They are my motivation to be the greatest; They are the best parents that anyone could ever ask for because, even though I didn’t always believe in them, or myself, they have never, ever, stopped believing in me. Well, the most important things I want to say to the four most important people in my life, and the most important person who is no longer in my life, are listed above. The truth is, it’s not too late for me to say those things TO them. It’s not, ‘I could’ve’, it’s, ‘I wouldn’t’. I use time as an excuse, but it’s not time that will fix my inability to tell people what I want to tell them. Why haven’t I mustered up the courage to tell them these things? I don’t know; That’s the only way I can put it. Maybe, I just suck at the real stuff; But, I have the capacity to change that. Will I? If so, when? Those are questions that I can’t truly answer. This is the best start, of which, I can think. Usually, I have a point to the daily quote. In this case, the point is that I have no point. I have no idea how to find the courage within me. Now, you all know what I would say if I had the courage to say it. My parents read my blog, so they will get to read what I really want to say to them. As for my sister, my best friend, and my ex? The only question is: How much time will I allow to go by before I tell them what I want to tell them?
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