Who? What? When? Where? Why? How?

I realized something today. I realized why I’m a Boise State fan. But, I won’t say why, because I don’t want to jinx the Broncos. After all, they’re the only hope that I have left in the sports world.

Depend on. That was a phrase from the magic ticket scene of The Polar Express. If you haven’t seen it, I highly recommend it. Depending on others can be nice…

I don’t really know where I was going with that.

I was lying in bed yesterday, asking myself one simple question: “What am I doing?” Actually, it’s not a simple question. My answer: “I don’t know.” Also, “I have no idea.” I don’t know what I want. That’s not true. I want the New York Giants and the Boise State Broncos to win. Yeah, lousy, huh? Boring desire. I don’t know what I REALLY want. Actually, I do. Maybe I don’t. I’ve told you before that I write to talk through things with myself, and inspire you. I want to make a difference to others. I have made differences to others. I should’ve specified that I want to make POSITIVE differences to others. I have made some. Not all. I think and feel too deeply. I only argue with others because I argue with myself. I argue with others because it presents some clarity to have the perspective of others. I argue with myself because only I understand my own perspective. Except I don’t. If I did, I wouldn’t argue with myself. It doesn’t strengthen arguments with others when you don’t know how to win an argument with yourself. I feel…lost. I thought I knew what I wanted. I never knew. I will know. When? What do you do when you don’t know who to believe? When you don’t even trust yourself? I don’t know. I have no idea.

You don’t know how much time I spend staring at my screen, wondering what to write. When this happens, I usually leave my hands on the keys. I feel as though there is some energy traveling through my hands, and into the keys. Positive or Negative? Both? I think the full extent of what I want to write, into the keys. Then, I type what I SHOULD write. Can you blame me? The internet isn’t exactly, trustworthy.

Football

-Philadelphia Eagles QB Carson Wentz threw his first career INT (Detroit Lions CB Darius Slay) in the Eagles first loss of the season to the Lions. The Dallas Cowboys and Washington Redskins, however, both won, while the New York Giants lost. So, the Giants are now last in the NFC East.

-The Cleveland Browns are now onto their 4th string QB, Charlie Whitehurst. Yeah, 3rd string rookie QB Cody Kessler got injured in their game against the New England Patriots, today. The Pats, however, had starting QB Tom Brady return from suspension. He claimed he was a little rusty after throwing for over 400 yards and 3 TDs against the Browns. Of course he did.

-New York Giants WR Odell Beckham Jr righted his wrong with the kicking net on the sideline. After getting into an altercation with it two weeks ago, Beckham gave it a hug during Sunday Night Football. Kicking nets are people, too!

That’s all for TheHaysWay today, make sure to leave a much-appreciated like. Also, thank you for reading. I don’t say that enough. Also, please leave a “You’re welcome” in the comments if you actually read this far. I appreciate you reading through the confusion that is my mind converted into words, and I’d like to personally thank those of you who read my posts all the way through. Have a pleasant tomorrow.

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10 thoughts on “Who? What? When? Where? Why? How?

  1. You’re welcome. Don’t be so hard on yourself! You are on the right track..and a wonderful one..to an exciting and successful future.

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  2. Wow! It’s like you pulled my thoughts right out of my head…and, here I thought I was the only one who felt that way. We’re more alike than either of us would probably like to admit. Hang in there, Billy.

    You’re Welcome!!!!

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  3. This does not come up on my ipad..also Auntie Nancy signed up but doesn’t get your blog We need tech support!!!

    Sent on the new Sprint Network from my Samsung Galaxy S®4

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    1. If Aunt Nancy has signed up, she should be able to adjust the settings to receive email notifications when I post (if she follows me). I have not gotten notification of a new follower, so that might be the problem. As for your ipad, what doesn’t come up?

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  4. You’re welcome. I’m sorry your Giants are struggling this year because I know how hard you take it. That is one of the beautiful things about sports – the highs and the lows. I don’t think we would experience the level of utter joy with a winning season without being tempered by times of dismal failure. Keep your chin up – it’s the only thing you can control.

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    1. I know, it’s just hard to take the tough seasons when you don’t know when the next good season will come. I always keep my chin up! 🙂

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